It is hard to describe the situation when you get someone out of your life and know it is for your own good, but still stumble across something about that person and cannot stop thinking about it.
First of all, stumble upon may not be the right description, but it is a good excuse. Actually it has taken some effort and slowly but surely I have stopped looking for this person in social media, or I had until Tumblr, I happened to remember this person has Tumblr...
Eyeing through a little bit of it one post caught my attention, a quote from a really good song used as image and the description was for two of this person's former friends: the first one does not matter much, but the second one has interesting details.
First thing to catch my eye was the use of form of "pseudo" to refer to the first friend, and the lack of it on the second, not hard to read through lines here which person means more. Then, the lack of "XD", which is a smiley face largely used by this person, when talking about the second friend, makes it look more serious. Then it refers to "only mistake" and "emotional problems" which sound reasonable, but that is the main problem.
So I'll make this personal, because I tried to talk about it to her and she just stood up and left. Love is not an emotional problem, being in the friendzone is, and I can say it, it shows fear of rejection, lack of confidence, low self-steem, dependency, and misunderstanding of the important things. Why would a girl, actually anyone in the world want someone like that if not for benefit? You should never keep someone with so many issues close to you, negativity is contagious, and trying to comprehend this person is not a way to help him. Your only mistake was not being able to let me go! I had all this shit to deal with and I didn't realize. Clearly it wasn't your fault, you weren't the one in love, you were not the one blinded by the hope of a relationship that would never happen, it was never meant because you didn't want it! And this is not your fault. But why keep a friend obsessed with you? I wasn't even your style, I was trying to be like you all the time so you liked me, I wasn't a cool guy, I was what you made me be! So, I had to let you go instead, and didn't want to hear me explain why.
And this ends my silent rant over a tumblr post, and it is in english because who the hell cares anyway.